Monday, November 11 2013, 04:31 PM MST
Person 2 Person: Elizabeth Smart
Elizabeth Smart opens up to Shauna Lake about her kidnapping, rescue, and new life in this week's "Person 2 Person".
Below is a transcript of Shauna's interview with Elizabeth.
SHAUNA LAKE: First of all thank you so much for doing this with us. I feel like I know you because for those 9 months that you were gone while I was at Channel 2 and we covered your story every single day. Do you feel that sense of connection with the community with people looking for you and praying for you and thinking about you all the time?
ELIZABETH SMART: I couldn't imagine coming from a better community. I have always felt so loved here and just like so many people cared about me and they really did want a happy ending for me and still do want a happy ending for me. I have to attribute as well as Im doing today too partially to my community.
SHAUNA LAKE: Did you ever feel a sense of anger that it took 9 months to find you when people were so connected and thinking about you and looking and yet you were right there in front of us and nobody seemed to see you?
ELIZABETH SMART: I wouldn't say I ever felt a sense of anger. I certainly, more than anything, wanted to be found and to be rescued. But I didn't seem impossible not to be found any quicker because I had watched this man be so manipulative and so controlling and Id seen him succeed so many times. I mean why wouldn't he succeed in keeping me hidden?
SHAUNA LAKE: And yet you were so close. You were so close, Elizabeth, that must have driven you a little bit insane. That entire time; to know you were on the streets of downtown Salt Lake City. Your house is a couple miles up the hill. You're so close and yet you probably felt so far away--like it was impossible.
ELIZABETH SMART: It was, like I mean, you know sometimes when you go into a building and you can look through a glass but the person on the other side can only see a mirror. They can only see their reflection; what is it called one sided glass? I don't know. It was like that it was like looking through this mirror and seeing streets that my mom used to drive me down every day seeing shops I used to like to go into but then everyone else on the other side when they looked back all they saw was a reflection. They didn't see me.
SHAUNA LAKE: There were times when you were able to out manipulate him as time went on.
ELIZABETH SMART: Yes, almost at the end of my kidnapping they were talking of a new city we should go to. We had already moved from Salt Lake to California and they were talking maybe we should go to New York or Boston and I was just ahhh; we can't go there. I'll never be found. Nobody found me in California if I'm going to be found Ive got to get back to Salt Lake. So I thought about what he did and how he got away with what he wanted and I decided Id try it on him. I would try to use religion to manipulate him to come back to Salt Lake and it worked.
SHAUNA LAKE: What did you say?
ELIZABETH SMART: First of all I feel like I need to clarify this, I know it's wrong and I knelt down and I prayed and I promised Ill never do this again. Just let it work this one time. And then I turned around and I faced my two captors and I was, I just have this feeling, I know that God would never speak to me but I just have this feeling like we're supposed to go back to Salt Lake. Could you please ask him? Could you please ask him because I know he'll tell you? I mean you're his prophet. You're practically his best friend, could you ask him?
SHAUNA LAKE: Some people would lose faith going through something like that. Why have you done this to me? Why is this happening to me? And it seems like it had the opposite effect with you.
ELIZABETH SMART: I don't think God sends hardship on anyone. I think everyone is allowed to make their own choices and sometimes they are terrible choices, sometimes other people's choices affect people who least deserve it, but that we don't have to be alone through it and we don't have to feel abandoned. We don't have to give up. I mean we can always turn to our Heavenly Father who loves us, who wants us to be happy and we can always rely on him and know that whatever happens that it can be turned for a better cause. For a bigger reason, for the betterment of ourselves even.
SHAUNA LAKE: It seems like the love story in this is the love of your family, the love of your mom specifically. You talk about her so adoringly in this book. Did you think about her?
ELIZABETH SMART: I thought about her constantly.
SHAUNA LAKE: In your darkest moments would you think of something she would always say? Did you visualize her face? What was it about her that kept you going knowing you could do this?
ELIZABETH SMART: One of the most poignant memories happened right after I was raped and I was feeling like my world was over, that my life had come to an end. And I had remembered her telling me that she would always love me no matter what happened. That she would always love me and that could never be changed.no matter what.
SHAUNA LAKE: Did you ever think when you were capable, that true love was going to be in your life?
ELIZABETH SMART: No, I thought that had been stolen from me. I felt like Id never have that.
And you do. And I do.
SHAUNA LAKE: You met someone who didn't really know you as Elizabeth Smart, the person that all this had happened to.
ELIZABETH SMART: Right, Hes from Scotland. He hadn't really heard my story and he met me and thought I was cute and then some of his friends kind of told him oh, well you know, she has been through some things. And he was all, I don't care, we've all been through things. And the rest is probably history.
SHAUNA LAKE: Because people are so vested in you they want to know what's next. So you're finishing your degree in harp at BYU. What about a family and future? Do you want to have a career? What are some of your aspirations?
ELIZABETH SMART: Right now Ive been able to do a lot of child advocacy work a lot of speaking and Ive loved that. So I plan to continue in child advocacy and speaking and working with my foundation and I want to have a family.
SHAUNA LAKE: Well its a long future and you have plenty to look forward to. Elizabeth, it's been so nice to get to know you a little bit better person to person. Thank you so much. Thank you.
-Written and Produced by Angie Dennison
(Copyright 2013 Sinclair Broadcasting Group.)